Hello cyber-world! Its been a long time again but here’s the good news. I’ve got internet at home now! WAHOO!! Now let’s see how long I can keep up with this blog!

Some things have changed in my life. I’m no longer single. I’m happily married as of October 10th, 2009! I married a great man and I’m proud to call him my husband. So, to the guy from entry about dating single moms: We can all have a happy ending and deserve just as much love as the next person does

It’s good to be back!

This another one of those Long Over Due type of blog posts…

My son was born in November 2008! Everyday since has been marked with a lot of love, a lot of crying, a lot of diapers, but no more vomiting… at least from me! Jaered has had his days and nights mixed up since birth. Joy. Essentially I’ve been up most of the night and most of the day, considering my other two children sleep and play at normal hours and require my attention as well. Isn’t it amazing how even though one can be completely worn ragged they still find the energy and strength to be there for their offspring. Well, it amazes me! Now don’t get me wrong I would LOVE to sleep at night. That would awesome. However, Jae is very colicky and there’s not much that comforts him at this point, and I’m ok with that. It’s just another hurdle we’ll get through together as a family. I’m just happy to have a healthy baby, no matter his gassiness LOL!

Jae’s a happy baby for the most part, aside from all the colic. He smiles often and coos when you talk to him, just as most babies his age do. His siblings adore him. Kae sometimes shows a little jealousy but that’s normal. He loves his new brother but is definitely starting to show a little resentment towards having a new baby around. I think he’s feeling a tad bit “replaced” so I try to reinforce my love for him everyday. Tae is sticking true to her nick-name,  “Mama Tae”. She is constantly asking to hold him and is even wanting to change his diapers! Once she gets them open if there’s a hint of “poo” she immediately closes it back up and shouts “Mama!” Guess she’s not ready for that I’m not ready for that!

It’s been so long since I’ve posted here. But today, I was inspired to start again.

Originally, I took a break from the Internet almost completely due to the monitor making me so nauseated during my pregnancy.  Well I had my newest addition to my family in November 2008! And I tell you what, he has been a handful ever since! I had forgotten what it was like to have a newborn. It’s all to quickly coming back to me!

Only recently have I been back online. Mostly to check email and keep in touch with long distance family and friends. But today something happened. When I checked my email I was notified I had recently received a comment on a post that was back in May of 2008 entitled Dating Single Mothers. Intrigued, I read what the gentleman had to say, and I use the term “gentleman” loosely! I was so surprised by his anger towards single moms that I could not let his comment go without some kind of reply. So I logged in and approved it then sent my own reply. In all honesty I have to feel sorry for someone that is so obviously disgusted with a substantial percentage of the nations adult women.

So here I am. Sitting here, finding the time to blog again. I was excited by the fact that I’m being heard! I have a mysterious and very angry individual to thank for it. So I thank you “Carl” for inspiring me to come back to my blog and share my opinionated thoughts yet again with the online world!

King Kaeden at school on Friday!

Today is the day! The day where he sits in excited anticipation of all his young guests showing up to celebrate his birth! With an elevated heart rate and an anxious breath he asks me this morning, “Is today my birthday?” You can hear his voice dripping with excitement! I tell him, “Yes dear. Today is your birthday.”

“Yay!!” He shouts as he bounces off the bed. He’s been asking for almost a month now if it was his birthday yet. LOL He’s so proud to be turning 5. I told he’s so grown up that it’s almost time for him to start college, get married, have kids… Then I said are you ready for that? To my dismay he responded with a yes! I guess that’s what I get for asking.

After only 5 years, I can’t begin to imagine my son having a family of his own. My daughter either for that reason! They grow up so fast… but not that fast when you think about it! I’m just going to sit back and enjoy these years with my kids. They tend to fly by faster than you realize. I don’t want to take anything for granted!

Lately, I’ve been down and depressed and quite frankly out of the loop. With holidays and birthdays approaching faster than I care for them to and not the most desirable living situations topped off with being 30 weeks pregnant, broke, with no quick hopes of income coming in, I’d say I’ve been feeling quite sorry for myself. I even missed out on posting my awesome Wordless Wednesday photo due to my own depression.

Today, however, I pulled myself together and out of bed… pushed aside my feelings of baby sickness and was determined to get an article out for Kelby’s site Type-A Mom to which I am proudly an editor for her. As I sat here and typed I decided to pull up twitter.  Something I have not done in over a week. I’m still getting to know the people on there and I never have too much to say. But something in my head today told me to open it up and join in the conversation.

I may well be an open book, but I am a shy person and often find it awkward getting involved in the tweets. Today was no different. But I often read the different “tiny urls” that are posted by the various tweeters Even though I was in the heat of looking for a picture to go with my new article on Household Budget Advice my eye was caught by one of those tiny urls posted by LaTara. It was a link to her newest blog post on her site Mom Unplugged. I have a good idea why that specific tiny url distracted me so much that I had to read it.

Oh, but you know me, I didn’t read it right away. Of course not, instead I opened it in a new tab and saved it for later, at least I didn’t just bookmark it for later like I’ve done with so many others that I never read. For some reason this one was was different, I could feel it. I kept mis-clicking on my various tabbed adventures and would continuously bring up, yup, you guessed it, LaTara’s post. I finally gave in, stubborn as I may be, and read the post. I was so touched I teared up. Now you can say I’m just being hormonal due to my baby blues but in this case you would be wrong.

I have no doubt as to why this particular post affected me the way it did. Because I have strayed from my faith in God and instead of listening to Him I’ve been trying to make my own way. Now you can get what ever you want out of her post, but for me, it was a matter of my heart and knowing that some where back on this rocky road I’ve been on, I’ve lost my way.

I haven’t been listening to God’s will and doing things His way. When you try to take on the world alone expect to be alone. God is there for you if only you’ll let Him! Thank you LaTara, I’m waving my white flag.

Kaeden was goofing around with our new kitten Cleo. Cleo is short for Cleopatra and let me tell you this kitten definitely thinks she’s a queen and needs to pampered continuously throughout the day LOL We may not treat her quite like Queen Cleopatra but she is extremely pampered!

That photo was taken of the family dog… erm… goat. Her name is Chico. She jumps up in the jeep with us and loves to go for rides. It took forever to get a photo of her because all she wanted to do was eat the camera! She’s the newest addition to our little family so far and she fits right in!

So far into this it has been the most difficult pregnancy I’ve had out of the three. My pelvis is constantly in pain and the doc says that it’s normal. I’m a skeptic on the normality of it considering I didn’t hurt like this with the first two. But hey I’m not a doctor, right? My protest is that I know my body better than him so we’re currently at a stand still. LOL

The baby’s very active now and is already taking after me by aggravating the hell out of his father. Poor guy. Every time he tries to feel the baby kick he stops kicking. It just cracks me up! Daddy doesn’t find it as amusing as I do however.

At 28 weeks I look similar to a beached whale… Even my doc says I’m putting on weight to fast and in his words “will be as big as a house” by the time I deliver. Way to cheer me up there big guy! But seriously, I love my doctor! He’s honest and to the point. He’s not one to sugar coat and is always rather blunt with me. I also love the fact that he’s a family doctor and in turn sees my whole family. I’ve never had a family doc before and the originally the idea that the same doctor was going to treat me as well as my children was a little disconcerting. I have come to LOVE the fact that he treats my entire family and knows my family history. It’s always an awesome feeling when he remembers me and the kids. I never feel like just another patient. Being use to having specialty doctors made things a little odd at first, but I know now why they call them “Family” doctors! I feel like family when I go in there. What an awesome feeling to have!

As I was researching ideas for my newest article on Type-A Mom I came across a fellow’s site that I must say quite offended me. If you guessed by my title its about dating single moms. I, just like so many other women out there, am part of a proud group of women known as single moms. It doesn’t matter how we became part of this group, the fact is that we are. Does this mean we don’t deserve to find someone to share our lives with any longer?

According to Dr. Dennis W. Neder any man that comes across a single mom should turn and run. He has written an article on Dating the Single Mother and I must protest his findings! I guess there are some single moms out there that are the money hungry irresponsible women that he describes here, but we do not ALL fall under that category. In fact, most of us DO NOT fall into that category! He made a few good points such as a any new beau would have to accept the fact that her children have a father that will be a part of the picture. He actually makes the statement referring to his argument of why not to date a single mom “find a woman without kids – they ARE out there!” What makes him so against single moms? Don’t we need and deserve love too? He then goes on to say “Ok, you won’t listen to reason, what should you do?” Are we really that bad?

My opinion? He sounds like a pig squealing put downs from his sty. But hey… That’s my opinion.